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hey there. life as a nurse is not easy, is NOT like what you saw on tv. is more complicated and difficult than that. but life doesn't let you down all the time. i still enjoy it. so...
just enjoy reading but due to my hectic schedule i won't be updating my blog so often. sorry for the inconvenience.
♥ DancingSheep
three cheers for me.
she is the one and only
Wen Sin. sometimes also goes by the name
Janet.
she gets older each year on 01 of Dec.
enjoys staring at the skies.
wish to touch the snow but scare of the cold.
currently taking nursing in Pantai College of Nursing and Health Science.
11:02:00 PM
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
There’s like 4 free periods today and we start our day with some school activities launching by doing some fashion shows and something else that is too lame to be seen. I was burying my head on the PS, I Love You(thanks Ei-Jean!) and occasionally lifting up my head to adjust my numb legs. No teacher actually teaches us except for Pn. Loo. And for the first time I’m not sleepy during her class! Still the guys took turns commented about my dark circle, actually I kinda freaked out for the first time when I looked at myself in the mirror today morning. I still think mine and sis dark circle somehow inherited from my mom, maybe it got worst as I'm always not getting enough sleep. Later something happens and kinda scares me but also make me realized that I’m not the only one who’s stressing out under hell lot of pressure and wanting to do better in exams. I will help you as the best I could my friend, that's my promise to you. Sorry for being so selfish sometimes...
Went to ta pao goreng pisang and stuff for lunch with Carmen and we obviously bought too much for comfort and we got sick finishing the foods as Inez and Denise and some humans helped us out. But the sambal goreng bun is nice! Just too oily and too much flour being used I guess. Simply duty for an hour then quickly chiao before Cik Balvir came walking in the library. I slept while jaga kaunter(so bertanggungjawab right?). it was drizzling so Carmen’s mom fetched us home, save the walking!
Reached home don’t know why felt so happy(oii! Percubaaan next month lah!), while I was feeling a bit sleepy quickly grabbed the skipping rope with the MP3 Yee Won lent me in my ear I started to skip for like 30 minutes! Felt like I was floating in the air with the freeness feeling only don’t know why! Later when out for dinner(maybe is cause of cousin’s birthday), she belanja her class Secret Recipe cake and got some leftover. I, auntie and cousin ate at this Bentan Kaya??? restaurant in SS 15 and the yam rice plus the roti bakar is D E L I C I O U S!! So sad lah I don’t own a camera phone or camera! Wanna take photos also cannot! And cousin was saying I’m a camwhore(I guess I am, but not so BAD lah). English test tomorrow but my head remained still on PS, I Love You! OMG!!!
me being greedy as usual.
cake of the day: chocolate banana cake. yum yum!
i'm quite a good cleaner here
8:29:00 PM
Monday, July 30, 2007
Happy 19th Birthday my beloved cousin Yin Ning!!!!
Today’s blog is dedicated to my closets and more like a sister cousin which will celebrates her birthday tomorrow(I scare I will be too tired tomorrow so I will just post it today!). She’s is a very funny person, cheer me up through my teenagers mood swings. I grew very close to her since i started to lived with my auntie's family and there's times I'm really glad my dad sent me here, he definately didn't make the wrong choice. She’s also the most talented artist I ever seen even know she said she’s sucks(you are not lah Yin Ning)! We love to hit and glare at each other for fun all the times, but she’s still the first person I turned for advices. She’s always thinking for other people first unlike me which makes me loves her more. Even know I always picked on her when I’m bad mood but I still love her like a sister. So, wish you had wonderful days ahead and be more brave in the future! I LOVE YOU!!! Muaks….. ^^
me and the birthday girl!
2:18:00 AM
I just changed my blogskin again due to some of my friends cannot load it or something. But I still loves the previous wan. =( Hope you guys can read my blog now. PLEASE be can or else I will be so dead, so much work to do just to change the blog skin!
Nothing much happens today except Frisbee game with the church people. I only reached home by foot at 8 and the journey walked back home is seriously no fun! Is kinda dark and I had to blinks my eyes few times to see some lights. But auntie didn’t say a word, don’t know I should feel relieve or sad. I did my blogskin till this hour! OMG!
I’m was kinda emo these days. Don’t know what’s up with me. Kept on have the urge to cry out loud and I did. I might think I need some pills to balance my hormone or something.
2:14:00 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Went to the study group with Ei-Jean, Xavian and Xavier. When I reached there which is 1 hour earlier before we supposed to meet up(no thanks to auntie who’s going out says to me if I don’t come down from my room at 12.30 she’s leaving me to walk there), stand in front of a bank then realized gotta buy malay newspaper so I walked to Big Bookshop. Then suddenly it rains outside, I got half wet just to get to Leo’s. I and Ei-Jean ate for a while then the guys came(they were both wearing white plus me which make Ei-Jean the only non-white. Hehe…). The whole surroundings air changes, is so …………………………….. I guess that makes sense since I’m the only one who talks like a chicken there.
After sending off Xavian for tuition at 2.30, we went to BK to study. Not so bad, at least I know how to plot the location. Haha… But I still hate ticker time! Tepat-tepat 4.30, Xavier’s mom called and off he went. I and Ei-Jean sat for a while more then off we go to the Big Bookshop then to Secret Recipe for cakes for auntie and cousin. Went home with Ei-Jean’s car pool, but got stranded outside for half an hour for not bringing the keys as auntie and cousin went out. Watched a horror movie showing on TV with auntie and she make it not scary at all by making fun of it. But I’m still gasping for air and screams over there while my auntie laughs at what I scare about. =.=
Thanks for the lesson panda lao shi.
Thanks for the study group idea Ei-Jean and for accompanying me to buy cakes.
11:45:00 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Today was no fun, the so called motivation talk is actually is some Inti College of Subang Jaya people came and promoted their business courses(Evelyn and Felicia should come instead to ganti my place lah, I was indeed bored to death). I was trying so hard to study my Sejarah(yes that’s right, I dozed off even before I finish 2 chapters due to the over comfort lying on my bed) while the people babble about business course. Then they played this cooperate wizard game(as they called it) and the questions is all business related. And they even have real prizes for the winners(each team with 5 people and the prizes is individually wan), but the stupid part is there are only 30 prizes and we definitely got more than 30 people. So I and TV didn’t play the game and let Navia, Cin, Elaine, Michelle and Vic played.
First prize: 1GB pen drive.
2nd prize: RM 20 Starbucks coffee voucher(I really wanted it so I can enjoy the freaking expensive but irresistible drinks as we do our study group there. IF I’m kind enough I might belanja my pals! =P)
3rd prize: RM 10 MacDonald voucher
And the so called my team won the first prize and my dream prize went to Rizwana team(BOOO!!! Except for Vivien lah). All the vouchers can only be use in SS15, how funny. Sejarah test was kinda scary when I can’t really remember what I studied. That’s the scariest part lah! Later I went very emo plus the pressure due to the complicating, confusing, hard to understand part of the pertukaran asing I got on somebody’s nerves(you asked for it, you got it!). Anyway, I’m not sorry about it at all. Felt even better man. Haha…
Went to the mamak with the usual gang, we all laughed and talk about only-we-know-who person. But I felt a bit left out when too many words went around the table. Evelyn left for the CC, I followed her. Guess what I went in with my school uniform and got kicked out. Gosh, do I ever read the signboards!
After changing and getting some rest I went Frisbee. The weather was fine, but USJ 8 people ffk lah! Arrgh! But we still had fun for an hour or so when the drizzle got worse I tumpang Cin’s car and came home. BI and Moral for tomorrow but I’m definitely not ready for it. HAHA… My chest are tight, my breath are heavy.
Something is bothering me but I choose to let it be, let it free, let it go...
3:04:00 PM
25/07/07当你觉得疲惫，平时让你依靠的肩膀不再像往时那么坚挺了，如果人心说变就变，给再多的时间还是挽回不了一颗死了的心。
当人生变得很复杂时，连心想结束一切也需要一定的勇气，胆小的我只好学会享受这成长的过程。
Class was quite fun today too, EA teacher was teaching us about pertukaran asing then as talking about ren min bi. She didn’t know how to pronounce it then Chuong Wei and Wilson was pronouncing it fluently in our perfect Chinese slang then the whole class laughed as teacher still can’t pronounce it right. BI teacher was talking about self-esteem, and someone said I’m always in the center of attention, in a bad way. And someone told me too that a lot of people dislike me. I know I’m always very busybody, irritating, and lacking of attention. That’s my bad, I will try and change, even knows it takes forever…
Math teacher didn’t come so the whole class went gila as usual, and including me. Tomorrow got some motivation talk and PD quiz before recess. It will be a looooong boring day as Evelyn and Felicia decided not to go to school(of course I don’t expect Taryna to come to school either). Got 3 chapters of Sejarah to study, plan to stay up the whole night(nap 2 hours in the afternoon) and cousin already went upstairs to sleep at 12, downstairs are all clear except me and the hamsters. =.= Let’s just see how long I can last.
SPM: NOV 12-DIS 5(say bye bye to my dream to celebrate birthday happily lah, Ei-Jean you syok lah you =P)!
Thanks Ei-Jean for being a good accompany as I went through my emo period.
Thanks Yee Won for making me realized that my world is not that bad after all. Our world would turn out fine someday as hopes will never leave you if you keep hold on that, trust me.
9:11:00 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
It was still raining(is it???) when I woke up this morning, after sleepily thinking whether I should wet myself or not, I have decided to bath upstairs! Hehe… Felt so good with the hot water man, I don’t even feel like leaving the toilet.
School was REALLY crazy today, everyone in my class practically went high above the sky! There’s so much going on lah and the guys in my class started talking in the fa language(I wonder I’m pronouncing it right), it’s drives me nuts cause I don’t understand wth are they actually talking about! And there’s a lot of saliva spitting occurs and you won’t want to see it trust me. I was sitting in Feli’s lap then all in sudden U-Jean came and pinched my face and the next thing we know is we were pinching each other face! Wahaha… I went ponteng in 5T for 2 periods and got all crazy with Ei-Jean, I taught her a new way of torturing act and we tried it on a few people and the funniest was Xavian. Ei-Jean was doing the torture act then Xavian just selamba only then she asked him how he felt then he said pain lah! But he said he didn’t scream/shout because he’s a boy mah(ya lah, we know) then he went and did the monkey-scratching-body act(not in purpose i think)! Hahaha… Then me and TV were playing some stupid hand pointing game and are really dumb and funny! We don’t even know what we were doing and I kinda went crazy in the class(as usual).
I skipped duty but went lunch with Carmen, no one unlock the library lah so ponteng saja lah. Came home I got so freaking sleepy lah, kept falling asleep for god knows how many times! And I think I got a very mild flu, so syok! Haha… So long didn’t get flu/sore throat already(I must be crazy enough to love getting flu/ sore throat).
10:33:00 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
After becoming a Malaysian citizen since I was born, today only I realized that when we renew passport we need to pay around RM300++(thanks for the general knowledge Evelyn). Done 2 exams today, I guess I’m fine with BM( I don’t know whether is fine or not when I left out 3/7 questions of peribahasa and tembak 2/10 bina ayat questions). PD totally sucks, don’t wanna talk about it. And tomorrow got Accounts exam, OMG! Somebody PLEASE help me!!!
And guess what, I spent my whole afternoon plus evening doing a karangan that is not even homework till 50 minutes from now on when I went and make cute faces to auntie so I could boil water for bathing. Actually I can just bath hot water upstairs but that bathroom is so freaky! Guess what, I screw up while boiling water and cause it to spill(because I was smart enough to fill up the whole kettle) and I have to bath with that not so hot water. Now my head is just spinning round and round as if laughing at my stupidity, I felt like someone had just dipped me into a bucket of water and left me freezing to death in Genting! And I still got accounts to study plus that stupid karangan! Oh, I need more HELP!!!
7:56:00 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
虽然知道篇出来的谎言会伤害到人心，但还是控制不了，就这样我又多了一个去不了天国的理由。。。
Don’t know what’s up with me, had been sneezing since I woke up(maybe someone is talking bad about me, who ah?!!! And I’m still sneezing now. =.=). Gosh. Lunch was really like buffet, all the leftover food plus fresh food added all together got 8 types! Haha.
Just finishing my delayed accounts home work in the afternoon. We supposed to have Frisbee game with USJ 8 people but it had been raining since 1! Later at 4 is still drizzling but the game didn’t cancel, I walked out the house while I called Yee Won. She said her mom don’t let her out, I got a little frustrated. So I just stand under the rain while making my mind, in the end after realizing there’s so little people going and my auntie and grandma need me to help out in the kitchen cooking my favourite hakka dish. I decided to turn back(I’m so, so, so sorry panda and everyone there waiting for me under the rain. I truly apologize here).
Once I reached home, auntie summoned me to help out in the kitchen. Cousin is busy with assignments so I, auntie and grandma get busy making the dish. This dish is called suan pan zi(that’s what my grandma called it, and only she can make me eat two bowls of that dish!), till now I can only eat it when my grandma make it, I don’t find it outside. That makes me asking for more of this during dinner time. Haha. 
this is all mine!!!
grandma caught cooking my favourite dish.
before cooking.
12:32:00 AM
有时并不是我们不知道，只是我们觉得假装欺骗自己会更好，不是吗？
有太多话想说，但总是找不到正确的字来形容自己内心的那一根刺，不是吗？
到了呼吸停止的那一刻我们将会失去所拥有的一切，不是吗？
Went to Subang Parade for a while then there’s this 2 fella, 1 holding microphone another one holding a video camera outside the entrance. Me and cousin quickly walk passed them but they stopped us and it goes like this.
“Would you mind if we just ask you a few questions?”
“Err… What is this for?”
“Is a survey, we are the NTV 7 crew. We are just doing a survey, it won’t take long, if you don’t know the answers just say you don’t know. Is ok.”
“Err… does it involves the video camera too?”
“Yeah, haha… it involves the video camera.”
“Then never mind lah. Is ok. Sorry.”
OMG lah, I don’t even know what I’m talking about! Of course it involves the video camera! We had dinner in Parkway and the yam basket is delicious! And again I didn’t do much work and I got 5 tests to take next week. Watched One Tree Hill at night, cried my heart out. The show just got that thing to make me cry and jump in joys lah! All the best to myself! I will be spending half of my day with Frisbee game tomorrow together with USJ 8 people again. And waste another quarter of my day getting the effects for running around half of the football field just for the fun of the game. I seriously need more luck(and whitening lotion??)! Anyway, can't wait to sweat it out!
It feels nice to hold po po’s hands. It had been a very long time ever since I hold her. Am I just that selfish? I not sure I’m nice to her for the good girl image or just doing what I wanted. It had been even long time ever since I hold daddy’s hands. I miss being a kid sometimes, when you no need a reason to hold someone’s hand. The hand on hand contact is what you need to know you are not alone in this cruel world.
6:01:00 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
Thought I will be sleeping early yesterday, I ended up sleeping at 1.30! Got up feeling like shit. So tired lah! And I got exam later, plus I’m not all that ready. I slept during BI class get to study a bit. Science test is really crap lah! I don’t know if I can even get A1! There’s this 2 question with 2 marks each asking about the coin, first diagram asked what will happen when the cardboard with the coin is pulled off. Another diagram showing what will happen if 1 stack of coins in between 1 coin got pushed out by a ruler! And guess what my answer is. The coins will fall down because of its inertia stationary maintains its motion IN A STRAIGHT LINE! Wtf! Teacher said: Aiyoh, Wen Sin ah. The coin is stationary how to move in a straight line. If you didn’t wrote in a straight line I will give you 2 marks. =( Everyone, this is what I called study blindly. And that is just what I did most of the time!
One of my main bullier(Taryna)is considering plucking my hands hair as a hobbies already! Gosh, and Evelyn joined her and pulled till so painful! WTH man! T.T
Afternoon Feli came and taught me Accounts. Thanks for your time Feli! Appreciate it a lot!!! ;-)
Xavier passed me this IMU courses guide book or something like that(thanks panda!). After some hard thinking I realized I don’t have the main qualities to become a nurse. =(
Some people asked me what I wanted to become I said a nurse then their replies iis:
“Janet, you becoming a nurse!!! Just tell me what hospital you gonna work in. Then I will never enter that hospital EVER!”
“OMG lah Janet, you can or not wan? Later sure see you in the front page in the newspaper 1 day for accidentally killing a patient of yours.”
“I tell you, if that patient is those that need life support if you just tripped over the wires means gone case lah. You so clumsy!”
“Wah… If I see you in a hospital next time and you are going to handle me I sure straight away ask to change nurse loh.”
“Later people want you to inject on the hand you inject on the butt.”
“I will never let you handle my kids loh next time even know the whole hospital don’t have other nurses already.”
I really don’t mind they said like that. I know everyone just joking around only(I think). But I honestly can’t convince myself about the whole taking nursing idea. Sometimes I thought is my only choice since you no need to pay a single sens also if you got the sponsorship. Is my only way out if I wanna get a diploma when my auntie first mention it to me when I’m form 4, I’m definitely not good enough to get scholarship. I love helping people but how far can the satisfactions by that carry me through the rest of my life as a nurse??? There’s a HUGE price to pay if I stop halfway through the sponsorship, I really can’t risk it. I asked my cousin.
“Eh, honestly lah, I’m not kidding here. You really think I suitable to become a nurse?”
“Errr… Can gua. You just have to be more careful loh. Just double check everything you suppose to do lah.”
But she sounds kinda forceful when she said those. Haih… 
7:50:00 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
11:17:00 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
I didn’t realize there’s this edu fair in dewan not till I heard people talking about it. Guess I forgot about it. Went to the edu fair and took some brochures about nursing and I asked how much the price to study in KDU and its 39K!!! OMG! I wasn’t expecting it to be this expensive! That fella asked me to take sponsorship better loh and he said KDU in penang is a good place to study nursing (promoting his college). I was thinking to apply sponsorship in KL, Ipoh(cost of living there is quite low auntie said), and Penang(mainly cause parents is there). The things I scare about going nursing:
i) Not getting the sponsorship(which is kinda impossible I think because there’s A LOT of sponsorship provided. That fella from KDU also said so.)
ii) Cannot cope with the studies(heard nursing is damn tough)
iii) Cannot cope with the HUGE responsible(well, as you know what nurses does so you can imagine of anything goes wrong) And I’m just too clumsy and careless and also forgetful which make things worse.
Both exams got canceled today! WTH right! I studied and all in sudden is cancel cause of the edu fair! Tomorrow got EA test, I hate the last chapter lah, and heard tomorrow got talks too. So I planned to not to study it. Oh well, maybe just look through loh. I walked up and down to the dewan for like three times, I can’t believe I dropped my brochure so I have to gone back and take again(this is why I said I’m careless!). Is so freaking hot and pack inside, sweating like waterfall only.
After school I went to canteen to have my lunch I saw Inez and chit chatted with her for a while,(first time talked to her after the fight in form 3) we talked about what to do after SPM. I told her about my plan to do nursing she told me about some real life stories about some careless nurses gave wrong medication and filled in wrong forms and got an innocent man leg amputated. If she just trying to scare me she got what she wished anyway still appreciate the real life stories lah.
Was thinking a lot about my career in nursing today, scare if I can’t cope during the sponsorship have to pay back the sums of money which is A LOT! I know I shouldn’t be worrying about this right now but I can’t help it. I’m very scare about everything in life, I cannot even cope well for SPM i don't know how I'm going to survive in this competitive world for a second in the future. Haih...
Evelyn, be strong. I’m not used to seeing you in that sadness of you, so don’t! I will always by your side if you ever need me, if you ever really need me at all…
8:29:00 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
Today is so NOT my day. Don’t know why I felt like everyone wants a piece of me! I didn’t bring my accounts note book and I ended up sleeping the whole 1 an half period cause my stomach feeling a bit weird. Felicia, I desperately needing YOU and your accounts knowledge!!! When I reached home, just felt so damn piss that I screamed twice and threw the mop up and down few times while doing house work. Emo lah, and PMS just doesn’t makes things better(sorry lah if I scare anyone off by writing about my craziness). And things got so not my side when my uncle suddenly pop up when I’m mopping the floor(for your information, Janet HATES people walking around when she doing house work that got to do with floor!)! Arrgh!! Plus the whole class knows that tomorrow got science and math exam EXCEPT of course me! Gosh. I don’t know why I bother to even bring my note book to school!
When my cousin came back, I asked her:
“Hey, do you want a piece of me huh?! Today it feels like everybody wants a piece of me! Wtf man!”
“No, I don’t want a piece of you, I want two!!”
“Wth!”
“Is from Transformer the movie wan, you know when Jazz………………………….........”
“Oh ok, I didn’t even realized that line in the movie. That’s kinda funny though.”
Ok, I admitted I was that blur. Tomorrow got exams and I still got lot of homework need to catch up. My god lah! I’m so DEAD! Now I really wonder how many times I have said dead in this year. More than a zillion times I bet. And this time math exam included Probability! Do I need to know how to spell DEAD again! I’m so not going to get any probability questions right! Is just too hard for me, I’m not good in math when it is a statement. T.T Oh well, got to rush! Good luck to me then…
11:47:00 PM
Saturday, July 14, 2007
my distress call for midnight snacks : peanut butter with crackers! 
my beautifully laid out midnight snacks.
You know I really wonder what kind of shitty results I’m gonna get for SPM by seeing me not doing any work at all and being so relax and lazy. I surprise myself for doing so, is like the nearer SPM is the more relax i become! WTF is wrong with me!! I desperately needing MOTIVATION and DETERMINATION too!!! Ei-Jean we are in the same boat! =(
4:33:00 PM
There few stupid things I done in this week:
i) Few days ago, I was teaching Evelyn about those “find the volume of the solid” kind of math question. Then I was telling her about how to find the volume of hemisphere then was telling her about sphere too then all in sudden everyone(Taryna, TV, Feli, and Evelyn) was trying to get my sphere pronunciation correctly. I pronounced sphere as se-phere when it the s supposes to be pronounced in silent or something. Oh well, at the end of 2 math period, all of us is laughing at my stupidity in pronouncing sphere. And I even pronounced archive to achieve. Just how blind am I to read right?!
ii) Just when I wanna walked back to my seat from The Gang’s place when the teacher came in. U-Jean put his legs out and I step on it since I is too late to stop so that’s just too bad for you U-Jean. And I don’t know what happen next I guessed I almost fall stripping over something and the whole class is like “OMG lah Janet” plus a lot of laughter going on too.
Oh well, haven’t been doing work these days. Just sit around daydreaming, gotta move my ass since got few exams coming up next week.
I guess that’s all for my stupid moments. I wonder am I gonna miss school after it ends. My cousin told me she actually missed writing in an exercise book. School is like part of my life lah, but everything seems kinda blur already, so I guess by the time SPM ends those memories will be a little too hard to remember already.
My class 5 Cempaka/07 rocks in it own way, I'm sure I'm gonna miss those days.
8:16:00 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
我得到我所想要的,但感觉不同了，
心里还在犹豫，脑里不断在思考，
应该把面具拿下吗？
Went and ate lunch with Evelyn, Feli and TV, Taryna joined us later. Is like our routine to go yam cha on Thursday. I’m happy that we all can get together, is not often to find a group of friend hanging out together. I don’t know but I felt something is not quite right… Maybe I’m asking for too much. Sometimes I’m not sure what I wanted. I admitted I’m not a good person and I've got tones of reason for that, you won’t want to hear it.
Exam is important. It also shows some hidden side of a person when it got too much on a person head. We see people fighting to be the top, people that study for their parents, people that study for only themselves, people that don’t even care about their results and let their parents worry for them, people that care too much about it and forget other important things around them, people that will die to be the top, people study for a better future, people study just to beat their enemy. I believe everyone study for a reason isn’t it?
12:10:00 AM
OH MY GOD!!! I can’t believe the only thing that drives me nuts is my cousin watching Transformer cartoon that she downloaded! At first, she was watching through youtube then all in sudden she downloaded the whole 96 episodes of the cartoons and watches it when I was doing my work! There’s no more place for me to do my work as study room in the only place where I can do my work and this is also where the computer located at! I’m so going to SUFFER! I don’t know why she loves the cartoon so much. I only fond of the movie, is damn COOL wei(I’m actually repeating what I said after I watched the movie, it is COOL what!) as I’m blogging through the laptop, she watching it on the comp! T.T
11:18:00 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Time passes without me knowing, there are changes as each minutes passed,
I wasn’t sure people are changing or is just me,
When is dark I find myself can see better,
It must be me who love to be in the dark than outside where the sun is shinning.
Aziz is so cool lah, he came in to the class at around 7.50 and first period is Sejarah. And Pn. Lucy Lai is not in a good mood so people that came in late all kena from her, so when Aziz came in the whole class got so tension and we all were whispering to Aziz asked him to greet the teacher which he didn’t do. He just stared at the teacher and pulled his chair out! OMG wei…
I and Balwinder were talking about something then I only remember she said that “nobody can make you happy unless you choose to be happy”. Then I thought that was so right, the way she thinks is so different. She’s a quite one and she doesn’t mix around with people. Guess that makes her observe people more.
I recess with Chia and don’t know why I felt so wrong, I just not used to hanging around with people anymore. Is just so weird. And I’m turning weird too! =.=
Now only I realized that Percubaan SPM is in 2 months time, I’m feeling so scare already! T.T
12:54:00 AM
Monday, July 9, 2007
Today can be described by 1 word: OUT OF CONTROL!
Something happen and I starved for like 2 meals(lunch and dinner), take nothing except for mineral water. Is so stupid lah the whole thing and I ended up:
i) causing my grandma to scream her lungs out at me cause I just don’t want to drink the Milo she make.(very sorry grandma, I try to promise no more next time k.)
ii) stay in my room whole day and slept through it which I regretted and left me feeling so awake at this time.
iii) my dinner ended up in the rubbish bin, auntie threw it away after she left it on the kitchen table for like 3 hours.
Damn… If I know she will throw it away I rather eat it in the first place. So wasted! I’m feeling guilty for the food that now in the rubbish bin(of course, I don’t expect myself to eat it from the rubbish bin. Eeeww… Janet is not an animals or something that salvage rubbish bin for food even know I’m feeling damn hungry right now), I was staring at the food for like 5 minutes and kept on apologizing to God for wasting good food away.
Yin Ning, I don’t understand what’s happening in the afternoon but I’m not going to mention it still wanna say sorry here lah for being such a pain in the ass for ya.
Auntie, sorry for making you got so pissed off at me, I’m always letting you down isn’t it?
What happen today got me thinking again, it just sucks whenever I got myself thinking. It will be like never ending thoughts of mine. And I seriously hated it, such a waste of time but I can’t help it. Gosh... But I'm certain of 1 thing which is Evelyn's words of advice kept on playing in my mind the whole day. And I'm not gonna tell what was it.
1:54:00 PM
Sunday, July 8, 2007
I want to be the victim,
even know it hurts more, at least I got the right to show my emotions.
nobody will think is my fault, so I will be free from critics and guilt.
Didn’t do much again today, sad wei… Don’t know what’s up with me nowadays, seems so relax only. Is like SPM already over, yeah right!!!
9:19:00 PM
Saturday, July 7, 2007
3:06:00 PM
Was too tired to blog yesterday, went for a movie with cousin in Summit. We watched Transformer which is the greatest movie I never watch this year! Actually this is the first movie i watched this year, so out right??? =( Is super COOL and NICE! Everybody's that visited my blog MUST watch it(maybe not Ei-Jean, she can't find anything interesting about it which I don't understand why =P)!
Auntie fetched us to Summit, me and cousin share a set lunch in Mandy's just walked around then headed to the cinema around 2.45. Bought a large combo which we didn't know that consists of 1 large popcorn and 2 large drinks! I abandon mine on the seat, i just hated carbonated drinks! Through the movie, my cousin have to kept asking me to calm down(i just laughed so loud that causes a few heads to turn as what my cousin said later) and stop attacking the popcorn which finished even before halfway of the movie. Guess i just miss popcorn(can't blame me, the last movie I watched was John Tucker Must Die which is last year!). We walked back home and stopped by a few houses to check out the dogs, I always bet that once I took three steps near the new neighborhood's dog it will bark. But it didn't, and is super playful, the dog name is Foxy. And he's owner even offer us to take the dog for a walk! WTH! Doesn't he mind if we kidnap the dog or something.
Uncle and auntie went and watch Transformer too at night but didn't get to buy any tickets. I fall asleep on a book on the floor even before 11 and auntie shouted at me to woke me up. And I got all bad mood later when I fall asleep upstairs and cousin woke me up when she's already in bed so I have to went alone downstairs to wash up! =\
Thanks Yin Ning, is great going out with ya. Hope we can do this more often! *blowing kisses* And the monkey in the pet shop kinda looked stupid, sorry to say that. Haha...
5:39:00 PM
Thursday, July 5, 2007
No PJ today so we were just hagging around loh, everyone mood is affected by 1 person mood. Still have some fun doing accounts and maths question. I love the way Feli hand on my shoulder make me feel a lot more better, she really can become a good mom in the future. Haha...
After school me, Evelyn, Feli and 2 frineds stick along us to have lunch in Apollo. We pulled Taryna along halfway going there(poor her), then have fun eating. Very full man! But the sun is making me piss. We went to Feli friend's house to retrieve her bike but me and Evelyn stay outside the house under the tree catching up. Was kinda a emo conversation. When reach home use the comp till now, felt so bad but i can't help it. Gosh... When is SPM again? I seriously need a REMINDER!!!
Ei-Jean, you told me everything will be better. It did, even know is not much. I hope things will be better on your side too. I'm felt so useless and helpless when I can't console you with your problems. I'm so sorry for not being a prefect friend for ya! =(
the baby hamster mom! that's cute right?
8:27:00 PM
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
又回到从前了，过敏的季节就这样结束。。。
下一个季节将会在何时开始？Carmen surprised me along with Inez and Rhae Naa at 7.10 when I'm still halfway trough my breakfast! Later we all walked together to school.(thought Rhae Naa drive to Carmen's house, bet it will be kinda cool to watch her drives, haha.)They even put a red carpet in the middle of the tapak perhimpunan! I was just reading my story book and sweating for that 1 an half hour. School was just boring and damn HOT lah!! The weather is driving me crazy!
This is what will happen when 2 girls got insufficient oxygen in their brain when they meet with a dead lizard that lies in front of them...
my cousin painted it with marker pen but it was my suggestion though
take 2
12:25:00 AM
眼见那位女孩扮演着新的角色, 这角色对她来说很默生...
过了几年, 我再次遇见她, 发觉她已经完全投入在那个角色了.
“以前我所认识的那位女生呢?” 我问她.
“她已经有勇气离家出走了, 我还在尽量地把她找回来. 她带着充满希望的心情离开, 希望会被人怀念, 被人问候.” 她说道.
I only got up at 7.15, that is also after my grandma was shouting on top of her voice from downstairs! My alarm clock rang I switch it off then I thought it didn't rings so I slept back. When you started your day in a bad form it usually sums up the whole day will be suck. So it did. There's no need to say much about it.
12:04:00 AM
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
心还在跳动，手依然保持着温度也清楚地听见呼吸所传出的声音。。。
但为何我感受不到自己的存在？
Feli sat with me since Balwinder is didn't come and we did accounts during PD period. Thank you Feli for teaching me even know I kinda gave up for my accounts already. Don't worry, you will do well too k! Got caught by teacher and of course next is blah, blah ,blah. Our class got changed to another block because there's some exam going on, A and R class too got changed. The new class sucks lah, so warm and got insufficient of tables and chairs and we gonna use blackboard instead. Can't stand all the dust. Wilson saw me writing some stuff in my buku conteng and came up to me,
“hey, what are you writing over there?”
“nothing ah”
“is it P&C?”
“what's P&C?”
“private and confidential lah.”
“well, is NOYB!”
“what's NOYB?”
“non of your business lah!”
"ha ha."
Ei-Jean, things are better but that was just in seconds. Things got bounce back just like last time even before i can enjoy it.
12:15:00 AM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Why am I always expecting things that will never happen?
Today is Hari Terbuka, Feli and Evelyn came late. And it freaks the hell outta me cause I came for my promise and they both went missing in action not till the very last minute I finally saw them. I guess they kept their promise too. I am indeed very emo the whole morning and I think I know why. Gotong-royong was ok, just normal stuff loh. Can’t believe I actually bought homework along to school and I did some of it. Ei-Jean came to school later so I hung out in her class before going back to my class. Evelyn went back early with her sis then later everyone left too but Aswini went home kinda late so we both locked up the class before 12.30. Guess I’m going back only at 12.00 for 2 reasons:
i) Nobody is taking the report card for me.(this gotong-royong thing invloved the whole country I think so auntie can't come)
ii) There’s nothing to do at home, even there is stuff to be done I don’t feel like doing it
Evelyn gave me a bag full of cannot-wear-already clothes, I love it though. Sharing some of the clothes with my cousin.
Came home feeling not so tired, but still slept for half an hour or so. Got up and start doing my endless homework, and I’m still working on it. This is what will happen when I collected all my homework and tend to do it last minute. Cousin went and watched Transformers with friends, I don’t really care at first but after watching the making of I feel like watching it too!
I don’t find the baby hamsters disgusting and gross anymore. There are kinda cute though. Guess I got used to looking at them whenever they squeak.
thanks a lot Evelyn!!
the baby hamsters, maybe they do looked gross for the first time
