welcome.
hey there. life as a nurse is not easy, is NOT like what you saw on tv. is more complicated and difficult than that. but life doesn't let you down all the time. i still enjoy it. so...
just enjoy reading but due to my hectic schedule i won't be updating my blog so often. sorry for the inconvenience.
♥ DancingSheep
three cheers for me.
she is the one and only
Wen Sin. sometimes also goes by the name
Janet.
she gets older each year on 01 of Dec.
enjoys staring at the skies.
wish to touch the snow but scare of the cold.
currently taking nursing in Pantai College of Nursing and Health Science.
3:01:00 PM
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Days have been really busy and surprisingly FAST! I don’t remember pressing the fast forward button. I guess this is how everyone kinda feels right now. Studying have become a hobbies to almost all the SPM students, I was force to study Sejarah for 4 days straight next week cause I haven’t been touching it since the day I left Ei-jean house. Uh oh… DIE lah! Sure will end up falling asleep every single second or just don’t get what I’m reading at the end of the day. I see myself getting a big fat C for it, I think I can work it out to not make it a D! C is enough to make people have that weird look on their face so D is worst!
Yesterday cousin suddenly brought out a mini kite, played with it around the neighbourhood at 4pm! Is really, really hot even known there’s wind blowing. But I guess I’m a friend of the sun, so is ok with me. We ran around the neighbourhood like bunch of insane people. Later, we found out why the kite can't fly after I accidentally fly it pass the tree brunches. Cause I spoil it!
SPM is just like less than 2 weeks away, so is normal if people start making timetable to arrange their time. I make one too! Actually, I make one at the starting of the year. I didn’t even bother to look it, and I totally forgot about it too! So, let’s just see how long before I forgot about this timetable.
By the way, someone got pretty hand-made flowers from someone(is bloody romantic man!)! And someone got skittles all the way from Texas from someone too(is bloody touching man!)! When am I going to get something from anyone? HAHA!
Will not be updating a lot now, I’m busy with my current hobby which is studying! I can’t believe I’m studying, is not like very crazy into it but I did exercises lah. Better than nothing! No time to waste!
cousin flying the mini kite
exam marks/reminder/
timetable
the mighty timetable
12:50:00 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
Great, I got a damn bisul on my butt! Arrgh! Just when I wanna study I can’t bloody sit properly! And obviously lying down is useless cause I will end up sleeping like a pig. I think I got this when I fall hard on my ass few days ago from the chair, I also don’t know how that happened. My auntie denied all those explanation and just said my body got too much toxins. I think I need to detoxify my body soon.
So, I went to school today, overall I only went to school thrice this week. Everything is going well and I’m a very happy with things going on now except feeling like shit cause SPM is just 16 days away! Gosh! Time flies really fast already, I wonder whether I will cry on the last day of SPM. Is possible since I’m such an emo person. I will need many, many hugs on that day to my friends all. By the way, I got a KFC voucher from Cik Balvir, she says we are not going to do a party so she gave us the voucher to enjoy I guess. I thought we will get Pizza Hut voucher cause I saw her having tons of it the other day, was kinda disappointed when Vivien told me is actually a KFC voucher. Is not like I don't like chickens lah, but of course Pizza Hut the so called finger licking good chickens.
Feeling a little not so motivated which is a BAD thing! Evelyn coming over tomorrow afternoon, I’m teaching her math as usual. Called Ei-Jean to ask her about science, we chat and she can really make me laugh. The way she says things is very funny sometimes. She’s like teaching me physic more than science. I don’t get half of what she says actually, but I think I can figure out later. Which I hope is going to be soon! 
serving as a librarian for 5 years and i got this plus a sijil
1:40:00 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Yesterday while I was washing the mop, after a while there’s this damn cockroach floating on the water! I screamed and freaked out but it was ok. What’s really disgust me is that when I was squeezing the mop dry I found one of that bloody cockroach leg is in the mop. I threw the mop and ran out the toilet and screamed some more. Luckily nobody’s at home at that time. My body can be shaking like mad when it comes to cockroach!
Went to school today and it was full of laughers. Taryna, me, Evelyn, Feli and Sandra all stuff in three tables and they were books lying around. All of us were doing work, I guess everybody is having some high stress level as SPM is just in three weeks! Gosh, I can't believe it was so near already! But we still went crazy and laugh like crazy people. And Taryna just can't wait to bully me! Right, Taryna? =P And Aziz tried to sing like Jay Chou but failed badly, it was just plain funny. Everyone was laughing like shit. It has been raining a lot for few days now, feeling sleepy and lazy and a bit down?? Haha.
Anyway, today I’m going to introduce my Motorola V6 to everyone(who reads my blog)! Is such a pain in the ass cause I will have to wipe the freaking mirror front every single time I touch it! And I can’t get a screen protector cause some part of the screen is touch sensitive when I played the music(thanks for telling me this Ei-Jean)! And the MP3 is kinda bad, I played certain songs and when it come to chorus I can hear some “si za za za” for 10 seconds! And the battery is the worst! I have to charge like every 2 days, nokia can last me for three days at least even though I sms for 3 hours straight! And I can’t apply themes for this phone! Owh man…
BUT, the good thing is the camera! It really takes good photos, very clear. Sometimes if the photos appears a little dark just have to go through Photoshop. And the dictionary is more convenience than nokia’s. And is definitely much, much better/cooler than the nokia 6610 I used to have. I’m shouldn’t complain but I think I will screw this phone in one year time. I will have tried my best to be more careful with it since this will be the last sponsored by parents hand phone. And this is a 3G phone. Gosh, is way too high tech for me. But I LOVE it!!!
the touch sensitive button for music player
And the photos took me so loonggg to update it! Something is wrong with the uploading photo in blogger. I’m slowly losing my patience! Ei-Jean said the key chain is not yeng enough to match the phone and will end up scratching the phone too. But I'm not going to take it off! Hehe.
8:13:00 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Walked out from the house at 10.20am, bought hot dog bread and walked to a park nearby. Sat there for half an hour waiting for 11am to come, the park was empty. And I’m glad it is, make it easier for me to think. Is just so quiet, Yee Won said I will get bored sooner or later being alone, Ei-Jean said I will shed tears after a while being in the loneliness. Am I really going to? Finally, 11am is here. I walked to Feli’s house and did accounts. She helped me out and makes sandwiches for lunch. Thanks Feli!!! After 4 an half hours, I’m done with accounts. A part of me doesn’t feel like going home so I sat at the empty park again. In the end picked myself up and walked home. The bloody flies flying around are irritating the hell out of me. Spoil my mood only!
I kinda love this V6, it takes some not bad photos!
Gosh, just what the hell I’m blogging here! I guess my life is that dull. Maybe things will get greyer as school starts tomorrow. Let’s just see about that.
8:02:00 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Tomorrow is my uncle’s birthday, when anyone birthday come in this house I felt a bit out. Like now, I’m inside the room while they planned which restaurant to go to in the living room. Man, I feel like running away, is just so weird and maybe a bit sad for me. But I guess I will get over it soon, I have too I guess. What choice do I have, maybe I can cabut to Feli house earlier since I’m going to her house for accounts lessons.
Today final episode of On Litre Of Tears, did cry but not much. Don’t know why, maybe I’m just the girl who doesn’t like to watch the ending of every show. I prefer watching the process of it. Will miss the show a lot, vow to buy go in search for the diary after SPM! I want to get the chinese version wan leh. Maybe I will buy the show too, 8TV cut down a lot of parts!
Slept very late last night, I think my body touched the bed at 5 am. I just don’t feel sleepy and slept till 12 pm and ate my brunch. Done some maths and got lecture by auntie for not knowing how to draw the graph properly. The words are harsh but I can take it. In the end still cried like a sissy girl lah, I’m so WEAK! I hate myself when I’m like that. 
11:10:00 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
Went Ei-Jean’s house and spent half of my day there studying. We did some studying and ate a lot for snacks and I managed to get some sejarah and science facts in my head. So I guess is a good thing. For the rest of the night I just did some math and off to bed. Nobody will believe that this is how a SPM student lives when SPM is just less than 30 days!!!
Ate din sum for lunch and is just too much that I wanna puke! Spent my afternoon watching a movie on VCD then do some sejarah notes which I haven’t finish right now. When is SPM again??? OMG!
i want to bring this home!
study, study.
damn cute right???
it looks like in Genting but i took this on my way back near Ipoh.
and this also, damn cool loh!
this dog know how to relax.
the mountain!
me and the baby girl again!
1:36:00 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
I’m back! Err… I didn’t do any serious studies over there. I spent most of my time looking for food with auntie, babysitting neighbor’s baby(that’s right, she's the little girl that I bang her head hard while babysitting her TWICE and no i didn't injured her this time), sms-ing, sleep, and unproductive activities lah. Got a really terrible car sick on the way there, felt like that 4 hours plus in the car was just plain in hell! I hate car sick and I wonder why suddenly I got it. My dad says I used to love sitting in the car, yeah, I used too! Ate hell lot of delicious food back there and had fun eating it. The baby is damn cute too, she’s kinda smart too! I taught her some English words when I asked her again she can tell me exactly the same thing, she’s only 2 years old. Didn’t get to eat my favourite ice kacang lah, it had been raining on Sunday and Monday for the whole day since afternoon and auntie got lazy to go out. After lunch on Tuesday, we had cendol and auntie was too full to eat anymore so bye bye ice kacang! The cendol tastes great too lah. Auntie said too little time to eat, she kept on saying this hasn’t tried, that haven’t eat. Haha.
Don’t know why I don’t have the urge to study anymore, I just relax about like nobody’s business. Die lah… by the way, I got a Motorola V6 from my dad. Lucky me, no need to spend so much on a new hand phone.
Don’t know what’s up with blogger, I can’t upload the photos. Will do it in some other time then.
3:17:00 AM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Leaving to BM in 3 more hours, MAYBE will get my first ever camera phone from my dad. He sort of dropped his hand phone when he’s working and is raining, so you know lah what happen. He went and gets back his sim card then Maxis told him he can get this Motorola V3 for like RM 399! So he bought it and he doesn’t know how to use it cause is too high tech and stuff. So I guess is mine! I hate flat and slim phone, but I guess will have to give it a try since is free and so much better than what I’m using now! I think I will bring back more weight with me too! Oh nooo!!!
Went to parade today, auntie suddenly asked my cousin to get a new hand phone cause hers is really OLD. Is a nokia 3310. so, is OLD. In the end, she bought a nokia 5300 for RM 830 after much bargain(my auntie is really good in that)! While looking at the hand phone shop people counting the many, many pieces of RM 50(have to pay cash), I suddenly felt things is so expensive. I felt so poor all in sudden.
Haven’t be doing work nowadays, just lacking behind. But going to patch up soon, I think! Halo! Is just 28 days before SPM! Shit…
Will be back in three days time. Happy holidays! And Selamat Hari Raya!!
8:59:00 PM
Friday, October 12, 2007
Suddenly feel like got so much emotion going on, hard to describe in words. But I do realize I’m actually a person that can’t make people around me not to be piss with me. I guess starting over in Penang won’t be that bad after all. Auntie did ask me whether I want to return to Penang and study, I said maybe. She just asked me to apply in Penang too and then I can choose. Decision, decision, I hate to make it but I guess I will have to.
Will I miss my friends here??? Honestly I don’t remember much about what I did with my friends, is just kinda blur now. Maybe it will just fade away once SPM finish. But I remember about that day I attended my first wet party at Kwan, Teng house. It was fun. I remembered going to KLCC with Ei-Jean, our first outing together with just the two of us. I remembered the karaoke moment with Yee Won, my first k session with my camwhore partner. I remembered going for movies with Chia, we walked to Summit under the hot sun. Tons of memories with the Frisbee gang. How our class gang used to sit and talk and laugh and went crazy. I don’t remember much actually, I want to remember more but I guess my brain capacity is limited. Maybe that’s why I love to take photos, at least it last longer than memories. I’m sure more new happy moments will come up, but I will make sure I remember some of my high school moments. Is sad that someone doesn’t remember much of the happy moments, and I don’t want to be the person without memories to cherish. Now, is only one month before SPM. I’m scare but can’t wait for it to over. What will happen later I do not know, but I hope whatever it is, I will have a friend whom I can share everything with… I know I shouldn’t expect for anything at all, but there’s one thing I hope for, which is my friends still remember me after they found a new life after SPM, after they start working and when they get marry and so on…
人，有时就像一个出乎意料的惊喜，避不开，也躲不掉，还没打开的心门也只好静静地接受。。。
8:36:00 PM
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Things can get so funny sometimes? I wonder whose life I’m living now, it seems so far from the life I used to live. So weird huh? I have been questioning myself, am I happy with what I have now? I also don’t know, but it seem like life have more to come. I will just have to wait and see.
Let’s see, I got 67 for BI and 64 for Moral. So in the end, I got a total of an A, 4B’s, 3C’s and a D. Erm… Is not good enough I know, so gotta work my ass off for something better! And my auntie told me she’s going to jaga our school for SPM, but unfortunately she can’t do so cause the rules don’t allow her to jaga the school that her children or relative who is going to sit for SPM. So, she change the place with colleague. She didn’t say much about my results, just “OK lah”, I don’t expect her to say anymore than that since I always let her down or not letting her feel proud of me. Talk about the bet I have with Chia and Xavier. Both I loose kau kau, sadly(not so actually, at least I know I will not be spending much on someone. hehe). Maybe I'm just making a bet with Chia so we can go out together. Who knows whether we will be seeing each other later. Friends around me don't seems to last long, I guess I will have to appreciate every single second I spent with my friends from now on. Suddenly I miss my mom, I want to hear her voice. I bet she's sleeping right now and to tired to talk to me or something.
11:37:00 PM
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Wasn’t being in the best mood these days, cabut early out from school on Friday and went to Ei-Jean house. Went to grandma friend wedding dinner at the house, ate like a pig and walked back with cousin at 7. Is just opposite the school, so is kinda near loh. Later at night, Yee Won asked me to go Redbox with her and her sis. I thought for a while and decided to go, got so excited! This will be my first time to go k!
Woke up early and did house work and her mom came and picked me up at 9, we went to Puchong to pick up her sis and off we went to Pyramid! We planned to go for the 11am session but it was full! Damn, we ended up have to walk around till 2pm before we can sing our hearts out. I got myself a pink top in Colours from walking around, my so called self-control stinks. Because of that I ended up windrowing money from the ATM! And I seriously hated that! Went in Redbox for the first time! OMG! I was so sakai, screaming and screaming! We sang our heart out, was screaming like mad with Yee Won. It was so fun and fun I guess. First time mah, but my voice got kinda crack up at the end of the 3 hours singing marathon. and i have spent around RM 100 today! Now I'm feeling a little guilty.
Reached home in time for One Litre Of Tears. My grandma got my mood all turn off when she saw me crying like mad in front of the TV. She was scolding me for crying too much nowadays and kept on nagging say no guys want a girl who’s always tearing and stuff like that. But still I cried like mad, is so sad lah. Now my mood is all down again.
Not a productive day right??? I don’t think I mention studying. AHHH SPM!!!
Thanks darling for asking me to go k with you, it was fun. It had been so long since we ever talk this much! And I gave you my first k with you! =)
Thanks Ei-Jean for the words and the food and most important for being there.
And Taryna, don’t call me retard/dumbshit anymore! Thanks for the straight-to-the-point advices. =P
the room!
K-ing!
Camwhore fever!
7:12:00 PM
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Today was unproductive too, guess I’m bored of this unproductive word too. But I didn’t do any work, just laze around. Something must be wrong with me? Yes, I’m sure it is. And I kinda blog nothing but shit nowadays. Anyway, since there’s nothing to talk about, I guess I will just talk about my results.
BM- 65%
Science- 63%
Sejarah- 46%
E.A- 55%
Perdagangan- 54%
Accounts- 54%
Math- 73%
That’s all I got back till now, I know I shouldn’t have show it in the first place. is just so embarrassing. I guess I’m proud of my BM and Math. Others not so. Just hope I will grab that bloody A1 for my Science, it wasn’t that hard during form 4. Now is just getting harder, I don’t even know what kinds of experiment they ask for even know I memorize the experiments! Is just so many, plus the essay part is enough to snatch that bloody A from me. A just seems so far away sometimes. Gotta work harder, that’s what I said all the time but fail to do so. My Sejarah marks drop like shit, I used to love it, now I doubt that. I should go straight to the temple and thank god I managed to pass it! Is just so hard to stay up and study all about it, where is the Janet that used to love Sejarah?!! People seem to love Sejarah more, Ei-Jean and Chia got A for it(congrats ya)! Others subjects marks all gone up and BM marks maintain. Haih… Jia you loh. Still got a long way to go, or I should start saying short since SPM is just one month away!
I remembered once I dreamt of me hugging a pregnant women, I was sleeping soundly. I just felt so warm and safe, that is why I love to dream. It makes me feel and get what I will never have in the real life. Maybe one day I will love there more than where I am now and just pop a whole bottle of sleeping pills and sleep forever.
3:44:00 AM
I'm just scare the skin allergic thing will leave scars behind! OMG lah! Hope it won't cause it will be like damn ugly. Is all over on my hands and patches on my legs! Today was unproductive as usual, when lah I'm going to pick myself up?!
Life sucks, I know what I want but is just so hard to get it there. One more month before I will miss school life. Gotta appreciate the times I have left to spend with my friends. I will definitely miss it. Life is not easy, but weren't it be easier if we could just be in other people's shoes sometimes. Is not that easy as it claim, people just don't get it. If it was, I wonder why people still choose to die than to live. Life have never been easy for anyone at all, nobody live a good life, not until they think they did. Life is unpredictable, who knows who will be leaving their love ones behind the next second? Am I going to learn to enjoy life better? No, I don't think so. The really shit fact about me is that I don't learn from my mistakes not until is a really BAD thing. Why is that so? I also don't know, is just me. Does that explains why I'm always clueless who to call when I'm down and feeling shit? I think so. Does that make a bad person? Yeah, I guess so. Just wtf am I doing at 4 am in the morning? I don't know. but all I know is when I open my eyes the next morning, everything will be the same. I'm still who I am and I'm still living my life. Maybe all I need now is sleep and being welcome to enter the dreamland that I never get tired living in it, I don't even know what I'm grumbling about now.
the room!
Camwhore fever!
