welcome.
hey there. life as a nurse is not easy, is NOT like what you saw on tv. is more complicated and difficult than that. but life doesn't let you down all the time. i still enjoy it. so...
just enjoy reading but due to my hectic schedule i won't be updating my blog so often. sorry for the inconvenience.
♥ DancingSheep
three cheers for me.
she is the one and only
Wen Sin. sometimes also goes by the name
Janet.
she gets older each year on 01 of Dec.
enjoys staring at the skies.
wish to touch the snow but scare of the cold.
currently taking nursing in Pantai College of Nursing and Health Science.
12:36:00 AM
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
First day of posting, the ward was not that busy which is a good thing. But I still felt kinda tired. Don't know why. Now struggling to finish my 2000 words assignment which is killing me as I cut down my sleeping time to do this! Tired... It was raining heavily, by the time I finished my work, it still drizzling. The weather makes me wish that I have a water heater at home.
Have been doing a lot of thinking lately, I wonder where will I be after I achieved what I wanted to achieve. I bet it felt empty. Who knows... Is not like I will be able to do so. Will have to work hard. My dream is to do volunteer work in the poor countries or during any disaster. To work in a team, the best medical team ever. Even when I'm thinking about it there's a feeling like a rush of blood to all over my body.
I want to live a life with no regret. I want to live a life that I would die for it. I want to live a life the way I planned. I want so many things that sometimes I wonder do I really want it after all...
2:22:00 AM
Monday, December 27, 2010
I hate it when I have to leave! It hurts so much even know it have been so long already. Is weird thinking that I will be able to get used to this. But in the end I will still ended up crying to my dreams...
You kissed my forehead and asked me not to work so hard. It makes me want to just hold on to you forever. I know it will scares you to see me so fragile, so I just keep it all bottle up till the moment when you turn around and as tears filled my eyes.
Love you mom~
2:08:00 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2010
It have been so long since I ever posted anything here. Anyway, nobody reads my blog and I don't understand why I bother to post this even. Now I'm practically staring at the blank page in my lappie and basically trying to restrain myself from screaming out loud! I really got no idea on what to do about my assignment. I think I got all my ideas poured out on my previous group work that I practically got nothing to write for this. We are not used to passing up 1000++ words of assignment, all our previous assignments were presentation and presentation only. Suddenly we gotta write 1000++ words, so I think you know how we feels.
Anyway, is my last 6 months already. Time really flies. I think is going too fast already. Really dreading it. Scare of the work responsibility if a staff nurse and scare of leaving without the people I lived with for 3 years. It will be a drastic change that I gotta adapt to it. Guess life goes on. Just have to accept it like what JY love to say.
I will be going for management posting for 7 weeks and I got 2 weeks of night shift! =( Is not like I don't enjoy the extra 3 days of from the night shift, is just that is really tiring. And the time is too long that it can be boring sometimes. If working with not-so-angel-like staff nurse it will be totally miserable only. Just gotta cross my fingers. A bit worry about achieving 100% for all the cross since is the last time we will be going for posting. I can foresee the 7 weeks will be a stressful one.
Sometimes I wish I only got 1 home...
You know I really admire those people who can say they found the love of their life, the fact that they are so certain of the love of their life really amazed me. I really hate myself for not feeling this way when I'm with you. I know you won't and never will read this but all I wanted to say was I'm sorry. I really don't know how to tell you to just let it all go straight away but I really hope you would just let go. I don't deserve anyone right now, I'm just not ready give commitment in a relationship. I'm sorry that it did not turn out the way you want it to be.