It have been so long since I ever posted anything here. Anyway, nobody reads my blog and I don't understand why I bother to post this even. Now I'm practically staring at the blank page in my lappie and basically trying to restrain myself from screaming out loud! I really got no idea on what to do about my assignment. I think I got all my ideas poured out on my previous group work that I practically got nothing to write for this. We are not used to passing up 1000++ words of assignment, all our previous assignments were presentation and presentation only. Suddenly we gotta write 1000++ words, so I think you know how we feels.
Anyway, is my last 6 months already. Time really flies. I think is going too fast already. Really dreading it. Scare of the work responsibility if a staff nurse and scare of leaving without the people I lived with for 3 years. It will be a drastic change that I gotta adapt to it. Guess life goes on. Just have to accept it like what JY love to say.
I will be going for management posting for 7 weeks and I got 2 weeks of night shift! =( Is not like I don't enjoy the extra 3 days of from the night shift, is just that is really tiring. And the time is too long that it can be boring sometimes. If working with not-so-angel-like staff nurse it will be totally miserable only. Just gotta cross my fingers. A bit worry about achieving 100% for all the cross since is the last time we will be going for posting. I can foresee the 7 weeks will be a stressful one.
Sometimes I wish I only got 1 home...
You know I really admire those people who can say they found the love of their life, the fact that they are so certain of the love of their life really amazed me. I really hate myself for not feeling this way when I'm with you. I know you won't and never will read this but all I wanted to say was I'm sorry. I really don't know how to tell you to just let it all go straight away but I really hope you would just let go. I don't deserve anyone right now, I'm just not ready give commitment in a relationship. I'm sorry that it did not turn out the way you want it to be.
